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Directed By Women: Kokomo City (2023)

By Andrea Thompson

Holiday breaks are wonderful for many reasons, but as I return for a new year after a self-imposed hiatus, one of the benefits I reaped is getting to view D. Smith’s remarkable documentary “Kokomo City” multiple times. In the constant hustle that is the life of a freelance writer, getting to really soak in and absorb a film has become something of a luxury in the age of content, AI, and ever present deadlines.

And there is so much to appreciate in “Kokomo City,” which follows the lives of four Black trans women, all of whom are or were engaged in sex work. Want to think, consider, and laugh out loud within the first five minutes? Then give this one a watch, because there’s a whole lot of ground to cover during the 73 minutes we spend getting to know these women.

This is the part where I tend to marvel at the fact that this is a filmmaker’s feature debut, but D. Smith had been working in the music world as a producer for years before she discovered a passion for filmmaking, an endeavor which was partly born out of necessity. Although she worked with household names in the early 2000s that included Lil Wayne and Ciara, among others, even winning a Grammy in 2009, she was “forced out of the music industry” (as Smith herself put it) once she came out as trans.

Finding herself broke, homeless, and somewhat adrift, “Kokomo City” isn’t just representative of a promising new direction, it’s something of a comeback, and the accolades have been pouring in. They damn well should be, since Smith makes good use of the access she was granted to each of these women’s lives, the kind it’s difficult to picture another filmmaker getting.

If Smith weren’t also Black and trans, would we have been privy to Smith’s own very individualistic take on the contemplative route, with the kind of intimate dialogue that includes everything from hair removal tips to discussion of class, race, and how such forces affect their ability to pay those bills while they’re lounging in bed or the bathtub?

Unlikely, since “Kokomo City” has, in many ways, an insider’s unblinking gaze of the world and topics it’s delving into. And although her previous career came to a painful end (for now at least), it seems to have been time well spent, with the doc’s gorgeous black and white aesthetic and stylistic flourishes giving it an edgy music video feel - the click of a gun, the sound of a roar as sexuality is discussed, and the killer use of music in general.

Those discussions about sexuality, complete with light reenactments and nudity, also come off as both naturalistic and raw, to use the most convenient cliche. But that rawness applies to other less flashy, but still arresting topics, namely the way all four women discuss their lives and how their identities affect not only their daily circumstances but those of their clients. These women are older - to use the more gentle euphemism about anything having to do with women in pop culture who’ve left their 20s behind - having successfully entered various phases of their 30s, and are thus savvy survivors; not only more aware of the bullshit but less likely to take it.

That bullshit manifests in film’s most constant thread: the vicious hypocrisy of the many ways men take advantage of and sometimes actively harm them, and how cis women are typically all too willing to let it happen, but are likewise unable to imagine their partners even being attracted to them. And all four of the film’s subjects, as well as the men who are willing to speak of that attraction, are willing to make some truly jaw-dropping statements about it.

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As one member of the film’s central foursome Daniella Carter sums it up: “The only thing he there for is escaping his own goddamn reality. And you know what that reality is? Ten times better than the one he’s giving you.” With such statements - and plenty more where that came from - it would be easy to think that “Kokomo City” revels in self-seriousness, but like many a pop culture offering from those who are traditionally marginalized, humor and joy are the primary defense mechanisms when you generally don’t have access to more official protection.

What’s left unsaid may be even more telling. How did the men who are willing to talk about homophobia in the Black community and their own attraction and encounters with trans women come to meet Smith and the other women on-screen? As the women themselves speak of how often their typical customers conform to the stereotypical tough guy image, it’s indicative of a long history of gender and sexual fluidity in hip hop, a community that has only recently begun to grapple with its history of vicious homophobia.

It doesn’t prevent “Kokomo City” from earning every bit of the oft-used descriptor unflinching, and sadly that includes a frustratingly common ending for one of the most jaded of the women the documentary follows: Koko Da Doll, who was shot and killed in Atlanta, and to whom the film is dedicated. If another piece of art must end up being a tribute to a vibrant, resilient person whose life still ended far too soon, this one at least is also a beautiful, powerful testament to a community which finds itself under siege yet nevertheless refuses to define itself by its oppressors.

Directed By Women: All Dirt Roads Taste of Salt (2023)

By Andrea Thompson

Can a setting and the feelings and experiences it invokes be curated? Can a place and a story not so much leap from the screen as gently surround us while we view it? 

I’d make the case for yes after viewing Raven Jackson’s spectacular “All Dirt Roads Taste Of Salt.” As Jackson explores one woman’s life over the decades in rural Mississippi, there’s minimal dialogue and not much more than the bare bones of a story. But the details are so immersive you can almost taste the night air on a quiet summer night, the almost impossibly rich lushness of the soil, and the water that bathes its characters (sometimes literally) as they wind their own way throughout their lives.

A human intruding on such a sensory experience to impose any kind of obvious framing device seems unnecessary to the point of ridiculous, and sure enough, the film rejects narration to the extent that it isn’t until about 35 minutes in until we learn the name of lead Mack, who is mostly played by Charleen McClure. And since the views on framing also extend to linear time, Jackson is clearly counting on her audience to pay close attention to the details she does provide, and appreciate how she lingers on the moments of tenderness she captures.

There’s been plenty of willingness to do so if the reviews are any indication, which have used words like powerful, achingly beautiful, and rapturous. Why not? Even if other filmmakers have expressed a longing for childhood and a world that seems both far simpler and forever lost to us, not since perhaps “Daughters of the Dust” - to cite one of the more obvious influences for “All Dirt Roads” - have sound and imagery fused together to such poetically awe-inspiring ends.

For outsiders, the American South can practically feel like a foreign country in itself. That’s been played up to the heights of epic historical drama, for laughs in films such as “My Cousin Vinny,” and this time it’s worthy of the choice to shoot on 35mm film. Whoever has the privilege of such a viewing, congratulations on being the object of my envy.

“All Dirt Roads” would be remarkable if it was content to be an ode to Black rural life as told through one woman’s experience, but it’s also a loving homage to what we create by handmade means. It’s no accident that one of the first things on-screen is a child’s hands as she’s being instructed by an adult on how to slowly and surely reel in the fish she’s hooked while an equal amount of care is lavished on the sounds of the water swirling and the life that congregates around it.

It’s usually pointless to hope that a cinematographer becomes a household name, but hopefully Jomo Fray defies the odds for his work, and editor Lee Chatametikool is also acknowledged for his skillful transitions, where tiny details like a little girl’s hair ribbons pass as markers for whichever point in time that’s getting a lingering look.

There are a few drawbacks to this approach, even if it’s all art. Such journeys still tend to require some manner of human anchor, and the main pivot becomes the relationship between mother and child, which reveals itself as one of the most potent forces in a film that’s all about the nature of it all. Even when I wish I knew more about what exactly was happening, or maybe just the bare minimum of this movie’s version of exposition, I can only respect a filmmaker who is so skillfully determined to take her time and create a kind of memoir that asks us simply to take our time and consider things.

 Hell, “All Dirt Roads” practically begs us to take our time and appreciate our present moments; that there’s plenty of room for modern implements and the old ways of appreciating the natural world.  As another film once proclaimed, “An artist is never poor.” The richness of the world in “All Dirt Roads” clearly doesn’t extend to things like bank accounts for any of its characters, but with such faces to do all the talking, and the wealth of music and natural bounty on display, it’s certainly hard to argue.

52 Films By Women: Jinn (2018)

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By Andrea Thompson

Nijla Mumin’s 2018 film “Jinn” is a rarity. It doesn’t just center women of color, nearly all of them are also Muslim women who wear hijabs. It’s a tough subject to even make a film about in an industry that is supposedly committed to diversity, but it’s especially difficult to do it justice as Mumin does. “Jinn” doesn’t merely preach the beauty of Islam and being yourself in a world that is likely to attack you for it, it grapples with the ramifications of faith, freedom, and identity.

In can be difficult for adults to fight their way through such complex intersections, so the carefree, teenage Summer (Zoe Renee) suddenly has far more on her plate than college applications when her mother Jade (Simone Missick) suddenly converts to Islam and becomes someone Summer doesn’t recognize.

When Jade starts to bring Summer to the mosque, things get even more complicated. Jade is all aglow in the zeal of a convert, a godly light that Summer envies but feels too far away from to share in, even when she eventually decides to go along. So she converts, starts wearing the hijab, and refuses to let anyone talk down to her about her decision. But Summer also chafes at the restrictions her mother and her newfound community place on her. It’s the classic dilemma - all the comforts and trappings of faith can suddenly become chains when faced with the simple reality of being a human in a very messy world.

Islam does provide Summer with a new way of defining her struggles though, and she becomes more and more fascinated by stories of spirits called jinn. Neither of god nor hell, they can motivate humans to do good or evil. The turbulence inherent in the concept fits Summer’s own worldview, as she becomes increasingly aware of the limitations on her, especially as her attraction to her classmate Tahir (Kelvin Harrison Jr.), who also attends the same mosque, grows. 

One of the great ironies is that there’s nothing like repression to make a love story progress, so when Summer and Tahir lock eyes during the Imam’s (Hisham Tawfiq) preaching, it’s in a way that speaks of far more worldly attractions, likely made more delicious by the knowledge that those around them would condemn them for it.

But even as “Jinn” refuses to deny the darker side of Islam and how women are often shamed far more for not living up to expectations, Mumin also gives the mosque a warmth and a glow seldom seen in film. It embraces the comfort such an environment can provide, and none of the women who bask in it are victims. They are fully in control of their own decisions, even Jade, whose fanaticism begins to drive a wedge between her and her daughter.

The conclusion is about as messy as people generally are, with freedom being the ultimate goal for mother and daughter. That freedom may look different to both of them, but it is ultimately the ultimate prize with all that beautiful messiness inherent to them and others.

Jinn is streaming on Amazon Prime, YouTube, Apple TV, and Vudu.


52 Films By Women: Compensation (1999)

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By Andrea Thompson

“Compensation” is the kind of boldly independent experimental film that makes me rage and moan at the long and productive career of an artist that wasn’t. You’d think I would somehow find better ways at coping with this, but one of the most bittersweet experiences I have as a writer is to watch and appreciate a beautiful film like this...and to know that the director wasn’t given much opportunity afterwards.

It’s not that director Zeinabu irene Davis hasn’t done other things, both before and since. But they’ve been few and far between, and she has not been granted the creative opportunities she clearly earned. Seriously, how many more times must I mourn? 

And this one feels more personal than most. The 1999 black and white film “Compensation” isn’t just a love letter to love, it’s an ode to Chicago, the city I reside in and one Davis clearly has a great affection for. It’s not just that the entire plot takes place there, it occurs during two different time periods, at the beginning and end of the twentieth century.

Both are seen through the eyes of two very different couples, and primarily follow two Black Deaf women, Malindy Brown and Malaika Brown, who find love with a hearing man, Arthur Jones and Nico Jones, respectively. Played by the same set of actors, Michelle A. Banks and John Earl Jelks, both find their romances in danger thanks to the diseases of the day, tuberculosis and AIDS.

For this unique love story, Davis doesn’t just make fun, creative considerations for the Deaf community with her use of Silent Era title cards and vintage photos, both of ordinary people and activists, she portrays her non-hearing characters with a sensitivity rarely seen. We see this community through the eyes of the people within it, not by how they’re perceived by those who can hear, which, as “Compensation” reminds us, isn’t always positive. If we may dislike that some of Malaika’s friends disapprove of her dating a hearing person, we mostly understand why they do, even as Nico treats her with loving kindness and respect.

There’s less understanding and time spent in the past, which fills a bit like filler as time goes on, since the objections more revolve around Arthur, a recent arrival from the South as part of the Great Migration, being beneath the more educated Malindy. So it’s hardly surprising that Malaika and Nico steal the show while giving us a fun view of Chicago and Black culture with humor and a great sense of the city’s rhythms, while also flipping the switch on a whole lot of romantic tropes.

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Contrary to the usual way of suffering, saintly women catching TB, it’s the hardworking Arthur in the past who catches the very non-romanticized disease, while, unlike the most cinematic portrayals of AIDS, it’s Malaika who is HIV positive. It’s rare enough to see films address women living with HIV, but it’s even rarer to see a Black woman do so, let alone a Black Deaf woman who is seen as a complex character rather than a suffering one-dimensional caricature who’s in need of saving. 

That these women can’t always surmount the obstacles to their love is heartbreaking, but the most remarkable thing about “Compensation” is how love is always worth the risk, even if it may include a devastating fallout. 

Compensation is streaming on The Criterion Channel.

52 Films By Women: Born in Flames (1983)

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By Andrea Thompson

Since everyone seems to be in a revolutionary kind of mood, it seemed like a good time to check out “Born in Flames,” which is another of those films that remained unseen despite the enthusiastic reaction from so many in the feminist community. So I finally decided it was time to correct my lack of knowledge, and...wow.

“Born in Flames” is a deeply radical film, and it will remain so for probably the entirety of history. Many films are being rediscovered and lauded for being ahead of their time, but “Born in Flames” doesn’t just acknowledge, or more accurately, tackle head on what we’re only beginning to approach today, but it takes on genuinely radical actions to deal with them. In fact, some would be justified in calling said actions terrorism, and the discomfort around them remains in today’s environment, although some of that is due to to circumstances out of writer-director Lizzie Borden’s (gotta love the name) control. After 2001, there was going to be more discomfort than usual seeing a bomb go off on top of the World Trade Center building, even if it was designed to take out media messaging, not people.

The result isn’t so much indie filmmaking as guerrilla filmmaking, and the only reason this movie was probably allowed to exist in the first place is that it takes place ten years after the United States underwent a peaceful revolution that’s become known as the War of Liberation, and became a socialist democracy. The problem is that the environment seems all too familiar: a society that vaunts the progress it’s made even as it remains in the throes of high unemployment, and institutional as well as everyday sexism, racism, and classism.

The resulting vision of New York City is hard to pin down to a genre, let alone define. Filmed over a period of five years, and depending on which article you read, on a budget of about $40,000 or $70,000, “Born in Flames” seems part documentary since actual protests as well as staged ones were used, as well as futurist, sci-fi, vérité, queer, and of course, deeply feminist.

Nearly all the main characters are women, many are Black, most are lesbians, and its vision of just how one should fight back against a system which aims to dehumanize and demean are deeply complex. Some women have chosen to fight back via two different pirate radio stations as they broadcast various messages of anger against government actions, while one, Adelaide Norris (Jean Satterfield) has chosen more direct action by becoming a leader in the Women’s Army, which confronts everyday instances of sexism such as street harassment by leading groups of women on bicycles to fight back against the men who brutalize women on the street.

Adelaide is also the one pushing for more direct, violent action against a state that is cutting programs for women, holding them responsible for the hostility and outright assaults they experience, and trying to drive them back into the home by prioritizing male needs and creating new programs such as paying women for housework. But the women, which include Kathryn Bigelow as one of a trio of white feminist editors of a socialist newspaper, remain divided in their oppression. What finally does unite them is Adelaide’s arrest and death under suspicious circumstances while in police custody.

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What follows is a kind of feminist wish fulfillment, where women who traditionally divided by race, class, and sexuality band together against their oppressors. Sisterhood becomes powerful, as does their anger, which practically leaps from every frame as “Born in Flames” as it gives a rousing call to action for all women to unite. It’s no accident that the film was rediscovered in 2016, just as Trump was elected and women took the streets and to voice their rage once again. It’s a number that’s loomed large in the history of this film, given the station for one of the pirate radio stations is actually 2016.

In the midst of an election that threatens to keep Trump in power, “Born in Flames” might become disturbingly relevant in a way no one could have foreseen. In just a few months, how largely this film will loom in our culture might be revealed even further. 


52 Films By Women: The Watermelon Woman (1996)

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By Andrea Thompson

To watch Cheryl Dunye's 1996 masterpiece “The Watermelon Woman” is to notice something new and engaging every time. Cheryl Dunye, who was the first Black lesbian to direct a film, also wrote, edited, and plays the lead, but if there's a further thing from a vanity picture, then I don't know it. In fact, the first time I watched it, I had no idea so much of it was fiction.

Even if you knew nothing about the background of “The Watermelon Woman,” it's clearly a very personal film. Dunye even plays a fictionalized version of herself, an aspiring filmmaker who documents her search for an actress who played a number of stereotypical 'mammy' roles in the 1930s and was mostly credited as 'The Watermelon Woman.' As Cheryl delves deeper into The Watermelon Woman's history, she discovers her name was Fae Richards (Lisa Marie Bronson) and that she was also “in the family,” aka queer.

Just how Cheryl goes about this research in a pre-Internet world is only one of the many, many ways this film sends out the serious 90s vibes. Well, that and the outfits, especially what some people thought were so damn edgy. Cheryl not only uses human sources (such as her own mother, who basically plays herself) for much of her information, she actually works in a video store, complete with actual VHS tapes to rent. It's enough to bring early Tarantino to mind, a filmmaker who was also known for working in a video store and made a film led by a Black woman the following year.

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Needless to say, the similarities pretty much end there. While Tarantino has gone on to have a big enough career to be able to bitch and moan about how cruel the industry is to old white men, Cheryl Dunye's work is lesser-known, shall we say, although more recently she's become rediscovered enough for “The Watermelon Woman” to get a 20th anniversary restoration and a theatrical rerelease, and for Dunye herself to become a prolific TV director. This is in spite of her film not only including elements that have only become mainstream relatively recently, from the film's genre, which is a kind of meta docu-fiction, to the many issues she raises, from white feminism to the erasure of Black history.

“The Watermelon Woman” is meta on a level few films have been able to pull off. Dunye ended up having to create much of the limited history her fictional counterpart is able to discover, which in reality was either nonexistent or beyond the film's budget. Cheryl's own involvement with Diana (Guinevere Turner), a white patron at the video store, also begins around the time she discovers Fae was romantically involved with Martha Page, a white woman who directed many of the films Richards acted in, and who was played by Dunye's real-life partner at the time, Alexandra Juhasz.

Cheryl's own disillusionment with Diana also parallels a few revelations about the nature of Fae and Martha's relationship, much of which acts a brutal rebuke of white feminism, with many of the white women ranging from racist to well-meaning, or just outright tone-deaf. That said, Diana and Cheryl's involvement is the reason for one of the best lesbian sex scenes ever filmed, even if it did cause a backlash that involved criticism of the funding it received from the National Endowment of the Arts. Hell, Cheryl even gets harassed by the police in one scene, who refuse to believe she didn't steal the camera she's using to film, and even call her boy. This kind of behavior is apparently so normal to her that the film never even mentions it again.

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The more Cheryl discovers about Fae, the more “The Watermelon Woman” becomes a moving tribute to those history ignored or actively silenced. In such cases, the film is very aware that the lives of the people who did manage to create will always be a mystery to a certain extent, but the film refuses to reduce any of its subjects to mere victims, with footage of Fae and June (Cheryl Clarke), the woman who became the Fae's great love, that speaks of a happy life lived in spite of dreams which remained forever deferred.

52 Films By Women: Miss Juneteenth (2020)

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By Andrea Thompson

A mother in a small Southern town who pushes her daughter to compete in the same beauty pageant she won? This is the kind of scenario that just seems tailor-made for one stereotype after another, from the kind of demeaning, stereotypical has-been so desperate for her glory days she decides to sculpt her rebellious teenage daughter into the same mold she once filled so well, despite her daughter's clear objections.

But writer-director Channing Godfrey Peoples would rather laugh at such tawdry plans – in her feature debut no less – and give us a touching love story between a mother and daughter which also doubles as a kind of coming-of-age for both. The fact that we're introduced to mother Turquoise Jones (Nicole Beharie) first is indicative of Peoples's determination to give her characters their due, rather than devolving into more pernicious stereotypes. Even if their behavior sometimes conforms to them, People's clear-eyed compassion makes all the difference.

 
 

That empathy is primarily what makes it so hard to blame Turquoise for being nostalgic. Who wouldn't, given her past glory and pride as the winner of the Miss Juneteenth pageant, especially when her current job at a local restaurant, which she runs in everything but name (well, and title and salary) routinely involves cleaning toilets? Not that she has much time to feel sorry for herself, given that she's a single mother to the 15-year-old Kai (Alexis Chikaeze), who is beginning to envision a path for herself that's quite different from the one her mother has set for her?

Thankfully, Turquoise and Kai's differences never obscure the very real bond they have, which isn't only the movie's heart, but its backbone. Turquoise is never in denial about her daughter's reluctance to be a beauty queen, but while her nostalgia is always a factor, it's never her primary motivation, which is always a better life for Kai. For Turquoise, the pageant is the best way to provide that in a small town where resources and opportunities are scarce enough, but especially so for black women. From the name of the pageant, which is itself an ode to the day slavery was abolished, to the other characters, the majority of whom are also black, race isn't just a topic to be explored, but a force that shapes their lives and decisions.

Gender is also given equal weight. The Juneteenth pageant embodies prestige and history, but there's an actual tangible benefit to being a beauty queen. As in a full scholarship to any black university of the winner's choice...provided they follow the rules, since the organizers make it clear that the winner will represent not just history, but the ideal woman. As such, the contestants are expected to adhere to a strict, very gendered code of conduct in how they dress and conduct themselves, with very real consequences if they violate them. Turquoise knows this firsthand, given her pregnancy resulted in her disqualification from taking the traditional walk, crowning the next reigning queen, and her scholarship. Small wonder Kai finds such expectations restricting, dreaming instead of joining the school's dance squad, which the more conservative Turquoise frowns upon.

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Think that division is going to translate into one of the film's most touching moments? Well, you're right, but it also brings words like irresistible, empowering, and inspiring to mind. Kai doesn't just discover a middle ground between her mother's interests and her own, she gives her own spin on both her pageant performance of Maya Angelou's “Phenomenal Woman” and her femininity, with a look that involves her natural hair. It's nicely complementary to Turquoise's cemented status as a non-traditional community leader, through her work at the bar, where's she very much respected, and her bond with many of the other town's residents, not to mention her two love interests. The emphasis, however, is always on Turquoise's own longing to create something of her own, which she manages to in her own non-traditional fashion.

In essence, “Miss Juneteenth” is an ode to black mothers in all their imperfect glory, with Turquoise often acting as a leader and mother to her community, even her own mother, a judgmental, alcoholic minister she's estranged from. Turquoise sacrifices for her child while being constantly reminded of the many ways she's seen as a failure, even making a party out of developments such as the lights being shut off. Survival and hope shine through above all.

52 Films By Women: Pariah (2011)

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By Andrea Thompson

The 2011 Dee Rees film “Pariah” may be a coming of age film about a Black teenager who is also a lesbian, but her struggle isn't with her sexuality exactly. From the film's opening shots, it's pretty clear that 17-year-old Alike (Adepero Oduye) knows she's into women. As “Pariah” begins, Alike is staring in awe at a female stripper at a club with mostly Black lesbians while the very uncensored version of Khia's “My Neck, My Back” plays. So no Alike isn't in denial, but most of those around her are. Alike has to leave soon after, and her insisting that her best friend Laura (Pernell Walker) leave the bus before her is the first sign that Alike doesn't feel. Sure enough, Alike sheds her preferred masculine clothing for a more conventionally feminine look.

The reasons why are soon clear enough. New York City is generally depicted as a bastion of liberalism and acceptance, where stand-up comics can confess onstage that they're pregnant and planning on getting an abortion the next day. Not so in Alike's Brooklyn neighborhood, a more conservative world where in seems most are happily in denial when reality doesn't suit their beliefs.

Alike's parents certainly are. They're not only in denial about their daughter's sexuality, but their marriage itself. “Pariah” never officially reveals that Alike's father Arthur (Charles Parnell), a police detective, is having an affair, but the late-night phone calls, the absences, his lack of interest in almost any kind of intimacy with his wife Audrey (Kim Wayans), and his general defensiveness, are all clear indications.

Alike's inclinations are just as equally clear. It's inescapable even in trivial moments, such as when Audrey buys Alike a pink shirt, and her coworker immediately assumes it's for Alike's younger sister Sharonda (Sahra Mellesse), who is clearly interested in boys and what dress to wear to the school dance. Rather than accepting Alike, Audrey tries to mold her into the image she believes Alike should conform to, which backfires as such efforts usually do.

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The really heartbreaking thing is that it backfires in a way neither Audrey nor Alike predict. Audrey disapproves of Alike's friendship with the openly gay Laura, and pushes Alike to befriend Bina (Aasha Davis) instead. Alike is at first reluctant, but quickly forms a bond with Bina, who proves to be more complicated than she appears. In a film where music plays such a large role, the two first bond through a shared appreciation of the underground rap Alike adores. This also gives her a welcome relief from the club scene that the studious Alike has never felt truly comfortable in.

It turns out though (if it needs to be said...spoiler alert!) that Bina is pretty deep in denial too. She's very aware that Alike is a virgin, and takes the initiative throughout their relationship. Bina is the one who makes the effort to get to know Alike, and is the first one to kiss Alike, invite her to stay the night, and take their relationship deeper. But the morning after Bina and Alike have sex, Bina is detached, picking up stuff around her room and not looking at Alike. Not good.

It gets worse, as Alike naturally assumes that Bina still cares about her, even telling Bina that last was amazing and thanking her. In response, Bina dismisses both Alike and the ramifications of their night together, telling her it was just playing around and that she's not “gay, gay, just doing her thing.” The only concern she has left for Alike is whether or not she'll tell anyone. It's basically every girl's worst nightmare of how your first time will be.

This can't leave Alike anything but devastated, but it seems to make her more determined than ever to live her own truth. When she hears her parents arguing, she decides to get involved and finally tell them the truth neither of them wants to hear. Far from being cathartic, Audrey beats Alike in spite of Arthur's pleas, and Alike retreats to Laura's house. Even though Arthur makes a feeble attempt to bring Alike back home, Alike decides to head to Berkeley for an early college program she's been accepted to. “I'm not running, I'm choosing,” she says defiantly. Even if Alike's mother still refuses to reconcile with her daughter at the end, Alike's loved ones, which include not just her father and her sister, but Laura, are there to see her off.

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In a way, “Pariah” is a far more brave film than “Moonlight,” a far more iconic film directed by Barry Jenkins that came out in 2016. Dee Rees even utilizes many of the same techniques as Jenkins, albeit in a far more subdued fashion. Jenkins used a far more instrumental score in “Moonlight,” bathing its Miami neighborhood setting in far more sumptuous colors that spoke to Jenkins's influences, specifically Wong Kar-wai.

“Moonlight” also has Chiron reconciling with his mother and finding love by the end. In contrast, diligent student Alike leaves by the end for a new life, still estranged from her mother and the classmate who was her love interest. Even Alike's closeness with the father who was far less interested in changing her remains tenuous. Yet Rees leaves us in no doubt of the bright future Alike has ahead of her. Her heartbreak has allowed her to delve deeper, leaving us with a poem that speaks of her brokenness, and defiance, the freedom she has found as the result of her struggles.